My thoughts

I realize why they only give you 6 rounds of chemo...because no matter how willing you might be to do more, your body just can't take it. All the skin on the inside of my mouth is gone and I am spitting up blood because my throat is raw, I am weak and lethargic and ache all over, my head is pounding, the heartburn and indigestion is almost unbearable, my stomach muscles hurt from the nausea and cramping....my body just won't "bounce" back like it used to and its over a week later.

But after having said all that it was so worth it. I am done and I learned and grew so much through this experience. I can say I have been a Christian all my life but have I always put the Lord first in my life? I can honestly say no. We are selfish creatures and we want our own way in life which is not always His way.

Some people have asked me how I got through this and will continue to get through this. Well, I have some wonderful family and amazing friends, I have really good doctors and lots of support and help but mostly it is the inner strength and faith I have that only comes from God.
He carried me through this. He gave me the strength.

A group of ladies from church are reading the books of John. I got alot out of 1 John and 2 John was short and to the point. But when I started reading 3 John it hit me...
"Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth." 3 John verse 2

He doesn't just want my physical body healed but my spiritual being as well. When everything that we think is important and all the distractions in life are stripped away, what do you see? Because in the end its just you and Him.